The moon will rise, the sun will set but I won't forget...

Yesterday marked the five year anniversary of life with out our sweet baby boy. As always it was an emotional day. I feel very fortunate to have Colten in our lives. We can see what he would look like today, a glimpse of things he would love, and items that he may hate. We are fortunate to have a preview of what his life may have been like. We know that Jeret continued to bless us this past year. He helped his baby sister make it to the world safely, he gave us peace of mind and comfort during some scary days of a pregnancy. I feel truly blessed to have such a wonderful gardian angel. With all that being said it doesn't change the fact that it is hard. Having Colten is a blessing but he will never have a brother...a twin brother. Colten is at the age where he is extremly aware that he does have a brother. I like to think that they still have a twin connection. He is sitting her right now snuggled up next to me talking about his brother with me. It is amazing how aware he is. How he too misses his brother like crazy. I am so glad that Claire was a girl...I think it would have been extremly hard for Colten to have a brother that wasn't his twin...hard on all of us to see him close to that sibling and not want more. It is so very bittersweet. I know that if Jeret were here we would not have our girls (Aubrey because there is NO way we would have had another child quickly, and Claire because we would not have wanted four children) however we would never trade one for the other. I guess what we have to remember is his short life and the ture impact it has had on all of us. We have to thank God for his perfect plan for our lives and although we may not understand it, it is the way it is and God's plan is always great. So another year...365 more days without our precious boy, we will remember with all the sunsets, with all the laughter, with all the ups, and with all the downs we will remember our precious baby boy now and forever. Rest in peace sweet baby boy..we love you with all our hearts!